call it mass destruction

Hi yo,
first off, let me begin by saying i've been having some issues of late regarding the inability to actually "write."
i sit in front of my computer screen and just fucking stare. things come, but with great difficulty.
i'm getting better, it would seem, but the last few weeks, i've been on kind of a downswing, despite the fact i have a number of assignments out there, just started a new job, and have been having a generally good time.
as i said, i'm really trying. this is supposed to be my outlet and for some reason, i started thinking of it as a burden.
but fuck that way of thinking.
i just need to stop and get over that shit.
the whole self-obsessive thing rears its ugly head yet again.
i have many things to remark about on this fine day but i figured i needed to get that out of the way first and foremost.

so yeah.
and yeah.